I had a scan this past Friday and all is good. I love having a scan and feeling reassured that all is good. I have no issues really…my placenta is good, the blood flow through the umbilical cord is good, my cervix is long, baby is measuring right on target. It feels so good to have ‘uneventful’ appointments. It makes me feel so normal, after feeling so abnormal for so long.
So I am 21 weeks now and when I came back to reception, they booked all my appointments up until my due date! That freaked me out. Then she handed me an information booklet and told me to go register at the hospital! Okay, that really freaked me out. I asked if I could wait until my next appointment, then I would be 25 weeks. I just don’t want to get in the headspace of delivery so early…I am not even at viability yet which is 24 weeks! So I told her I would think about it. She is a new receptionist and I don’t think she understands the head space of infertiles. Weird…I still see myself as infertile, but I am preggers, is that weird?
However, the worst part was that she asked me if I am having a caesar or regular birth! I am freaking only 21 weeks…I don’t have a magic ball to see the future. She is like a booking nazi, does she not realize that babies come in their own time! You can’t schedule this so far in advance….am I being ridiculous? Do they really schedule it so early? So I guess I will have that discussion with the Dr at my next appointment.
All my friends have had caesaerians…. and they all think that is the only way to go. I think a caesarian is really scary! Although I think regular birth is also pretty scary. The whole birthing process is just big and scary to me. I trust my Dr and I know he will advise the best for me. But I have no complications so far, I am not a petite person, I have not had previous caesarians, so I would assume I would have a regular birth…..
I really have tried not to think about the birth part until I am closer to the time, but I guess I have to face the reality that this baby is coming! Crazy…it still doesn’t feel real.