And the waiting begins…

I am exhausted and my head feels like it is going to explode already! The progesterone always gives me horrible headaches. Yesterday it was on the left side of my head, today the right. So I am hoping it is evening out. I am taking it easy at home, just working on a report that is not moving along as quickly as I would like, but hoping tomorrow is more productive. I am on three Cyclogest and three Progynova a day….so I am pleasantly pickled in hormones at the moment.

My uterus is twingey, but I think that is also the progesterone. I bought all my HPTs yesterday, so I am ready to see those beautiful pink lines! I have been trying to meditate, but I keep falling asleep…so I guess that is what my body needs.

Anyways, the waiting continues. Seven more sleeps until I test!


Clexane Polka Dots

I am 5dp3dt and doing well. Of course feeling normal, although the progesterone is making me bloated, grumpy, tired and my boobs are pretty sore.

I have been taking the Clexane shots daily and feel no side effects other than these weird little puncture bruises on my stomach. Obviously the Clexhane, which is an anti-coagulant, is leaving a perfectly circular little bruise at the injection site. This morning DH told me it looks like I either have weird birth marks or chicken pox. It is not attractive at all, I prefer the bruises that look like bruises…these are just weird looking.

I had a dream last night that I was having twins and when I had the ceasar, they found three! I hope this isn’t forshadowing, I would be over the moon for one! Multiples sounds exciting, but incredibly scary to me. I guess you have no choice, you just jump in.

My mother and father in law are visiting until Friday. I woke up this morning to find all of my roses pruned right down to the ground. I didn’t mind my hardy bushes, but I have a few climbers and new bushes that are a bit fragile….so not sure they will survive a harsh prune. Luckily DH gave her an earful on my behalf so I didn’t have to. You ladies know how fragile mother in law relationships can be!

So a few more sleeps and DH and I will finally have a result so we can move forward. I hate the 2ww, it always feels like limbo to me. You can’t plan for anything, only focus on test date. You try to be positive, but deep down you expect disappointment. Well big ups to me for not killing my MIL this morning with all these hormones in me!

Waking up with my babies

This morning I woke up with three little babies inside me.  Good morning sweet little babies that I dream about!   I am still so over the moon at how great this cycle has gone.  However, I am still very aware of the possibilities of it all going terribly wrong…but I am forcing myself to stay very positive and believe that it will happen.  I went to bed before DH last night, to spend some time doing a little meditation about my embryos and visualising them growing.  I am so proud of my little embryos already, they are like little people already in my mind.  I am so proud of their growth, I feel so confident that they are going to keep growing…for the first time I am really seeing my babies.

Ok…maybe I am hallucinating or having some kind of progesterone melt-down.  I am still the hardened VET who knows that anything and everything can go horribly wrong at any point in time.  I just feel like it is my time.  I must believe it.  It can happen, I have seen it with so many others who have tried and failed so many times.  I know that all the negative energy will start seeping in a few days before I test.  I am going to try really hard to keep all those negative feelings at bay and focus on the miracle that we have three amazing embryos back on board.

Today I have three babies.  Today they are all here with me.  Today I am happy and excited for the future.  Today is a good day.  Today I do not have to take a Gestone shot…..pure evil 😉