Hormone haze amidst planning chaos…and a jerk-face boss to boot!

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I spent the morning in tears and have now picked myself up, dusted myself off and decided revenge is the only way forward 😉

So here is the back story. I was on estrogen after my septum removal – which was not fun – and now have been on progesterone for a week to balance out the estrogen – again not fun – so I have been in a hormone haze for the last month. What is even more concerning to me is that this is just the beginning. I start my Lucrin shots tommorrow, then will be put back on the estrogen. I am just waiting for Day 1 then IVF#7 starts.

I changed jobs at the beginning of the year, amazing work and I am getting some great experience. The challenge is my travel schedule…it is ridiculous. For those of you who have been down the IVF road, and have hectic careers, you know that the most stressful part is the scheduling. Now if I had a reasonable boss, I could probably explain this to them….but my boss is totally cray-cray and is the most irrational, unreasonable person. So not an option. I have done some creative scheduling and have been able to clear two weeks in early August so I am at least in the country when transfer is planned. I am out of the country from next week until October (flipping ridiculous). Needless to say I am looking for a new employer. I am actually home right now with a hormone migraine (thank you Primolut) and my boss wants a sick note. What a jerk-face. Well I’ll show him. I called the nurse and they are booking me off for the week, so suck on that jerk-face! If you had left it I would have come in tomorrow, but since you are such a jerk-face, I’ll take the week and sleep in late, do some shopping and go to the spa! Ha!

So back to my scheduling drama. As long as my period comes no sooner than this Sunday, my IVF schedule will work. The nurse and I planned it out and with me coming off the progesterone only tomorrow and starting the Lucrin, which also delays your cycle, our plan is totally reasonable. Retrieval and transfer should be the beginning of August. So I am not losing any sleep yet….just waiting. I have no plan B if my period starts earlier than Sunday. So I am praying that will not happen. I am actually praying a later period, Tuesday or Wednesday would give me a huge sigh of relief. However, these things are out of my hands and I am going to hope that luck is on my side.

So that is my scheduling drama for the transfer. However, my next trip is the third week of August, so my pregnancy test will happen while I am out of the country (argh!), so I am going to have to bring HPTs with me and won’t be able to get a proper blood test until I am back, which is the beginning of September. Not the ideal situtation, but unfortunately my reality at the moment. I am fortunately travelling with one of my BFFs and she is a medical doctor, so I am in good hands, and if I need a bit of extra rest she will make space for me. She will also have to give me those horrible progesterone butt shots…we’ll see how much of a BFF she is after that! Ha!

My my my….what a potential mess this could be. But I am going to believe that it will all work out, because feeling calm and positive is such a better place than anxious and negative. Ohhhmmmmmmmm……


A good start to the day

Every morning I have a bit of a ritual. I am a real early bird, so I when I wake up I do my morning meditation. I am still doing guided meditations because I am still new to it, about six months now but not always consistent. I have been making a real effort over the last month and I have to say it is really working for me.

I am just finding that quiet space to just clear my thoughts really helps me to start the day with an open attitude. Now those of you who follow my blog know that I am not someone who believes in absolute positivity…I believe it is about balance. Feeling sad, feeling happy, just feeling while ensuring you are emotionally balanced. It has not been easy, but I am finding that balance. It is constant work though.

So my DH just brought me my morning cup of rooibos. This is my favourite part of the day. Now I wait for my cat to come join me and then it is perfection.